born to die.
By Madeline Allen.
“and someday when my hair is white / (a tangled puff of cloud reminiscent of the skittish sky we swam under) / my sides will cease to ache with laughter / and i will suffocate under the weight of age / (and not summer joy)“
Summer Dreamer by Noelle Bairle.
i was born to die
(but for now i am that day we spent on the beach
breeze-tangled hair glued wet to our backs
sunshine warming shoulders but cold water freezing toes
sat halfway between sand and sea comfort and danger
and you told jokes wrong until i laughed so hard i couldn’t breathe
but it was a good kind of suffocation because i did it with a smile)
and someday when my hair is white
(a tangled puff of cloud reminiscent of the skittish sky we swam under)
my sides will cease to ache with laughter
and i will suffocate under the weight of age
(and not summer joy)
(but for now
i am the breeze and i am the hair tangled wet glued to sunburned backs
i am the sunshine cold water toes jokes told wrong
i am suffocating with a smile)
and someday it will be over
(but for now i’ll be the splenetic clouds scudding across a cerulean sky
i’ll be the soaking sand you sat in, seeping water into your suit
for now i will be the beach and the birds and the day and you)
and i know the sun will set and this day will end like any other
(but for now
i was born to be
i was born
just for this)
The Blood Pudding – June 2, 2022
Madeline Allen is a creative writing student living in the mid-western United States. She is a recipient of the 2019 NCTE Certificate for Superior Writing and you can find her work in Wingless Dreamer’s collection of essays ‘Overcoming Fear’.
Artwork: Noelle Bairle is a Sydney based Artist & Fashion Designer. Her work centres around the female form and waterscapes. During her career, Noelle’s work has graced the covers of leading magazines such as Elle, Vogue and worn by iconic women such as Elle McPherson, Dannii Minogue and many others. You can find more about her here.